Sorry!

I am SOOO sorry that it has taken so long to blog...my life is a roller coaster ride! Hayden was sick, got better, now sick again. Jack is a ball of energy and that really never changes!!! Caitlyn is a raging ball of hormones and cries at the drop of a hat (it's gonna be a long hard 18 years)!!! Dale has been working on his moms house for about a week installing tile counter tops and hardwood floors. We have spent a lot of time over there and are finally getting near the end! We got a new fridge, it is so big! It is a GE and it has the pull out freezer in the bottom and two big doors that open on the top for the fridge, it is funny because I dont feel like our food is worthy to be in there! We also bought a new vent-a-hood microwave and dishwasher. Our kitchen is getting smaller by the minute!!! Our lives are so busy anymore that it is hard to make time for blogging, but I vow to do better.
I have been a little MORE moodier than normal lately (no I am NOT pregnant, at least I hope not)! Not really sure why, maybe my hormones are out of wack! Who knows? I tried to arrange my work schedule so that I could be more available at home, but that was pretty much a failed attempt! I think the exact quote was, "I will not build my practice around Shanna's wants and Shanna's needs." For me that was a big eye opener. I don't expect to forgive him for that anytime soon! I cannot explain how difficult it is to raise three kids, work full time and be NORMAL! I am obviously not good at any of them! I have thought more lately about getting on meds for depression to see if that would make a difference, but for now I will just try to do my best! Caitlyn told me the other day that I never smile. She said "It's like you forgot how." That makes me want to cry every time I think about it. I wonder if working so late every night and being so stressed when I am home is making things harder on them. I should be at home with them more. I keep telling myself that it wont be like this for long and one day I will be a stay at home mom! He did agree to try to be done by 6pm every night, so maybe that will help a little. Probably, I am just worn out from the winter months at the clinic and listening to kids screaming at work and home! My kids are doing great though! Jackson is really doing well in Pre-K...Thank GOD for Ms.Jessica! Caitlyn is meeting all of her Accelerated Reader goals and Hayden is trying to figure out how to walk! He is so funny, quite the little mocking bird! He will say just about anything he wants to now! Anyway, I hope I have caught everyone up on my life! I will blog again tomorrow night if I have time!